Relationships - When you feel like you've had enough

Watching Bethany Ever after brings back so many memories of all the ups and downs my husband and I went through in the first few years of our marriage. It's amazing how quickly we forget but watching someone else's life and their marital hardship is definitely bringing back some raw feelings from my past.

The thing is I relate to Bethany is so many ways and thought it was appropriate to write this blog about the challenges each couple tries to over come to reach another level of the relationship.

In the beginning the relationship seems so perfect. Each person tries so hard to be there for the other. Buying flowers, dinners, going out of their way to help and endless conversations when both are so focused on one another, etc. But as time passes, all that fades and all the hard work begins.

The reason the hard work begins, in my opinion from 8 years of marriage is there are more challenges and more stressful situations. Money always plays a huge part in whether there is peace or turbulence between he couple. Pets, kids and other dependants definitely take a toll on a relationship. And as these things start piling up over the years you slowly start spending less time communicating and having fun as a couple. Each person has  a set of expectations and if not met this causes fights and  Trust is also a huge part of the factor. Also, as people age they naturally change so that also makes it harder on the relationship.

Overall you just have to be realistic about your expectations of a relationship and keep some of these factors in mind. There are always challenges and tests to see how strong your relationship is or could be. Learning to work together is the ultimate goal as you move along this thing called life! 

Update on My BACK

This morning I had some signs of improvement after hurting my back but as the day progressed it got worse again. I think the only for my back to heal and recover from yesterday's injury is if I don't move at all! This is obviously not possible so as I continue with my day I just look like a penguin wobbling along. Every moment I get I sit down and try not to move. I am praying this does not last the rest of the pregnancy because this is torture! The pain is so unbearable. If I move in the wrong direction sharp pain shoots deep into my spine.

I will keep you guys posted on this matter.
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Can you believe this! Injured my back!

Had a great start to my day today! Spent time with my little angel and found time to take care of business too! Towards the end of the day we got ready to go to Mila's skating lesson where she tried out her new skates!

She seemed to have been skating a lot better but kept falling on her butt a lot, or should I say her tail bone.  Which is like the worst way to fall. I felt to bad for her and was right there to comfort her with each fall. Her tears would start pouring and being a mother I just wanted to pick her up and comfort her, and did just that. The problem was on the second time she fell and I picked her up, my back completely gave out!!! It started hurting soo badly. What upsets me the most is the fact that I didn't fall on the ice or twist my back skating but just trying to comfort my daughter!!! Seriously!?!?..It brought back some major memories of my nonfunctional back after delivering Mila.

After Skating we had to rush to a meeting with our project coordinator and all i can say was my back got worse. I barely got out of my seat at the end to leave with out moaning in pain. Pavel tried giving me a massage to help relieve some of the pain but as I sit here writing this the pain is just constant! On top of that I had some more braxton hicks!

There are many decisions that need to be made as far as the office go and I am trying to give my hubby the best support that I can as far as not worrying about certain things and what not but It's super hard to support someone when I can barely support my whole body! I'm off to sleep now hoping and praying for some relief tomorrow! Goodnight!

33 weeks down 7 to go!!!Exhaustion

As I get closer and closer to the due date it seems as though time is starting to fly by even faster! I definitely feel super tired these days and spaced out! I am so thankful for my sister who comes to visit and is pretty much my spare brain. I don't know what I would do with out her. I definitely feel super exhausted and worn out!
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Dental Office Update YAY!!

This week has been jam packed with so much so I'll give you a quick gist of it!

 Mila was home with me all week and we had so much fun! I am truly enjoying being home with her. Got to spend time with my sister also which was a lot of fun. I've been making more of an effort to hang out with friends this week before I truly disappear. It's so wonderful to see all my friends reach out to me, because usually I'm the one planning things and getting things organized. It's strange but I sort of feel like I've been MIA lately and really trying to make an effort to be a bit social because once Lex arrives I think you will not find me ...except through a camera. LOL
 Although I feel super tired all the time I'm trying to stay active. Tonight for example we are going to the panthers game, YAY!!

We also met with our project coordinator to discuss the layout of the office which was so much fun! There are so many details and so much that has to be thought of when doing this but my hubby knew exactly what he wanted, where he wanted! And surprisingly we didn't argue. I love being there for him and supporting him and reinforcing his decisions so we are a stronger team!

Here's my vlog on the blueprints :)

Pulled Mila out of School

After Spring camp was over, Mila went back to her school routine, I noticed a huge change in her attitude towards that school. She wasn't as enthusiastic as before. She didn't look forward to going or seeing her favorite teachers. Remember how when I first signed her up and was having separation anxiety and looking for any reason to pull her out!? Well at this moment my child was telling me she didn't like it there yet I wasn't doing anything.

I probed her to try to figure out why all of the sudden she didn't like it. Everyday I would ask her if she had fun at school and she was kind of indifferent. She would say "mommy can I stay home with you and paint projects at home" hearing her say that broke my heart! How could I not let her!? This is just what I wanted, to spend time with this amazing little girl!

I still wanted to understand why she was not happy though so I had my husband ask her about school and why she didn't like going anymore. She told him she didn't have fun there. These answers where not what we were looking for so we left the conversation and just observed her after each day of school.

I really don't like to start something and not finish and plus for some reason I felt like people would judge me if I took her out. But at the same time why did I care what they thought? Some parents let their kids eat crappy food, watch crappy television, play video games, stay up late etc. She's not in a school system yet, this is more of a day care so who cares!!!

After having a long conversation with my husband we reached a decision to pull her out. I was soo happy when we both agreed! My time is ticking! The baby will be here in about 8 weeks and this is the only time I will have to spend with her before our whole family dynamic changes again! I don't need anyone to understand my decision but I am just so thankful she is home with me once again, even if its just a little while because once baby arrives she will start summer camp and a new school in the fall.

I feel so sad again as though I'm going to go through this separation again, but what if I don't? What if I'm so into the new baby, I miss all the important things with Mila as she continues to grow!? All these questions are so overwhelming and so scary as I try to savor each moment with her.

First ticket EVER..:(

So my luck is not on my side these days. Got my first speeding ticket EVER! This pregnancy brain is really to blame. Usually I'm so alert on the road and know exactly whats going on but today after lunch with hubby i was mellow and spaced out. The cop pulled me over and asked why I was going so fast and since my quick way with words has vanished since baby brain I just said I was spaced out....I mean c'mon how did this happen!?! The one time I needed to be smart, clever with words and all I had to say was that?! I could have said I had to pee really badly but that only crossed my mind when I got home...gosh so irritated! What a waste of money man! The state trooper did say he wants me to live a long healthy life to see my grandkids...so nice of him as he handed me the obscene ticket!

Anyways, on a positive note I went to the OBGYN today and the baby is doing just fine! Braxton hicks are normal as long as its not few every hour or so. My cervix is still closed shut so we are all good! 

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How I'm doing after falling

Had a fabulous weekend. Got a chance to catch up on some sleep, or should I say I slept like 7 hours with some kicks and bathroom breaks in between..LOL I definitely feel rested and so happy we got to hang out with our friends that are visiting from upstate New York. I love my Sundays with my family and  church family! So overall I can't complain. I do have an update on my belly and the pup since my fall...Don't forget to subscribe ;)

Hurt my belly :(

Got super hurt today...watch as I describe everything...:(

Restaurant review...gross!!!!

Last night my husband and I went out to dinner to this new English pub in Boca for dinner. I wasn't to thrilled with the food but husband did something he's never done before, he sent his plate of food back because it was so gross. He ordered Shepherds pie and it was literally a bowl of lard with mashed potatoes in the center. He was so disgusted I've never seen anything like it. It was a bit amusing to because he was trying to explain to the manager what was wrong with the dish and the only thing he could say was, "this is like a bowl of fat" LOL Anyways, I ordered a little salad and spinach dip which was descent but definitely not quite sure we will be going back there.

After dinner we got a chance to spend time with our friends from upstate new york that are on vacation right now. It was so great to catch up and have just some down time without the kids. Can't wait to meet up on Saturday for our BBQ pool Party! I am actually looking forward to it despite being MIA from planning and hosting things for a while.

Here's a video of Mila finally walking on the ice with out assistance, I'm so proud of her but still have lots to do to improve.

Our Project - Office Build out!

Had a meeting with our team today, feel pretty confident that we chose the right people to help us through the unknown territory of building out an office. Do you know that great feeling you get when you know you are working with a great team?! I knew it right it away. We have a tight schedule and lots to do but I know things will be moving along just fine!

I am a little worried though because usually I'm the one on top of things as far as business goes but my brain has been failing me in this last trimester so I hope i don't fall apart completely because my hubby needs me. Also, slightly worried about how it will all play out since baby Lex will be joining the clan mid project so...I guess I'm going to try not to think about it but then again I will probably forget anyways...LOL

Let the work begin

Had a meeting with our team today, feel pretty confident that we chose the right people to help us through the unknown territory of building out an office. Do you know that great feeling you get when you know you are working with a great team?! I knew it right it away. We have a tight schedule and lots to do but I know things will be moving along just fine!

I am a little worried though because usually I'm the one on top of things as far as business goes but my brain has been failing me in this last trimester so I hope i don't fall apart completely because my hubby needs me. Also, slightly worried about how it will all play out since baby Lex will be joining the clan mid project so...I guess I'm going to try not to think about it but then again I will probably forget anyways...LOL

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Feel like a horrible MOTHER/Wife

This weekend had its ups and downs! I'll start with the downs. I don't want to use this as an excuse for being short and snappy with my hubby and my daughter but I think it played a role in my lack of patience.

I had such extreme heart burn that it was unbearable. I couldn't sleep because of it, I couldn't think, or even eat! I kept forgetting things and I was just on edge! Sometimes I'd drink water and that would hurt soo badly too. Then, baby Lex would be moving around non stop so definitely lacking so much sleep!!

I feel kind of guilty for not being a great mom to Mila or being more appreciative of my husband. I know he's trying to make me happy but I just seemed to be super grouchy.

So Saturday was like the blow up day for me when I completely went crazy and started shouting because I got upset Pavel wanted to make a cake instead of putting Mila to sleep. I love putting her to sleep its our time to talk and read and bond...but with my horrible symptoms I just wanted peace and wanted him to take care of that night time routine. After my mini blow up and putting Mila to sleep myself I did apologize for my craziness but my hubby didn't want to be understanding(at that moment).

This morning we started out on a better note so I'm kind of glad we can move forward from that negative experience. At Church we actually made it on time and had a wonderful message about Jesus Rising from the dead. After that we spent time as a family at my mom's house where my sister planned an Easter Egg hunt for Mila! That was so nice because I completely forgot about hiding the Easter eggs.

When we came home we had a very mellow and relaxing evening. Pavel made home made Pizza and then we(as a family) got Mila ready for sleep. I gave Simba his first bath since his surgery. Overall we ended the weekend on a happy positive note.

Sometimes I want things to be perfect, sometimes I want everyone to play their roles, but in reality nothing is ever perfect. I have my moments, Pavel his and Mila hers. We can just learn to handle them the best we can, learn from them and acknowledge our faults because when we do that we truly make an effort to have a better relationship with one another and a stronger bond as a family.

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TGIF - Time to start Hiring!

Last nigth we didn't get that much sleep. Mila was a bit cranky and seemed to be annoyed with her runny nose. Eventually she did pass out!

Even though I barely slept last night I think I'm holding up well. It's funny because every morning I get everyone's breakfast and lunch ready but since Mila had a day off from school Pavel was a little off getting ready for work. He was like Kristina get up I'm going to be late...LOL I'm like what does that have to do with me?? and went back to sleep.

I managed to call a few contractors and architects to set up appointments and to get quotes! This is so exciting I still feel like its surreal! I have the keys and just want to go over to the office one more time and savor the moment!!

We're getting ready to meet up with some friends for a playdate! Can't wait!!!

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Getting the KEYS!!!!!

This is so exciting!!! I've been dying to share this news with everyone and the time has finally come!!! We are signing the lease today for the space we have been negotiating for the last month! It's official! Going to pick up the keys!!!! It's so weird because I am more excited about this office than when we first bought our house! LOL

I know we have lots of work to do now but I honestly feel like the first scary, uncertain period is all done with. It's ours and we can start building it out just like we want!!

The only thing I'm a bit concerned about is all the decisions that need to be made during the process. I know couples bicker and argue over colors, design, how much to spend on the project, etc and with the baby I hope we can keep our cool!

Housewives of Atlanta?!? makes me sick!

While at The gym the real housewives of Atlanta was on and I couldn't help but be disgusted at what we see as quality entertainment! Who gave these morons a show? Oh wait is it us the viewers to blame??? These women have kids and yet they prance around with these slutty outfits and act like idiots. This is why kids these days are just getting worse, because of the parents! And people just want to watch this dumb non sense and wonder why their kids are out of control, turn off the TV and spend time with your kids instead!!

On a happier note, here's a glimpse of pavel and mila swimming in the ocean.

What a perfect beach day!!

We haven't gone to the beach in such a long time because Pavel has been working so much! The water is so warm and flat...we. are about to go swimming. Going to bare my pregnancy belly :)

30 Weeks!! 10 More!! getting closer!

I am so excited to be nearing the end of my pregnancy! Ten week seems like a lot but I am counting down!!

Heart Burn is at its worst, it's getting harder to sleep and the weight gain is, well still steadily increasing. I am super exhausted most of the time and just want to sit around. The one thing I do have to say I don't have yet is back pain! My back was killing me during my first pregnancy and I tried not to move to much because of that.

Baby Lex is moving around quite a bit and I am so please my best friends got to feel his little kicks! I truly feel like I have the best support system in the world at the moment! Despite my insecurities about my weight gain and how large I look my friends and family do an amazing job to uplift my spirits! XOXO
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My new favorite restaurant!!!

Mimosa!!!

Friday night my sister came over to stay with us for the weekend and we decided to dine at Mimosa restaurant in Boca to try out their dinner menu since we were so pleased with their lunch!

Let me tell you that every dish that was brought out to was was amazing! My sister ordered Ribs, they were so juicy so tender and perfectly glazed! I ordered Roast duck! This was the best duck I've ever had in my life! It reminded me of my grandma's cooking but soo much better!!! Pavel got sword fish, and that was amazing also!!! I'm usually super skeptical about eating french food because each restaurant can be so different but this place is my new favorite place to eat at! Oh and let me say how amazing their desserts are! I got chocolate cake that was perfect!




I love this place!!!