Time is running out!

Had a rough morning yesterday! Hubby tried to feed me vitamins on an empty stomach and it all came up!  Luckily I was able to turn my day around and find the energy to work out run errands, take care of house projects, schedule more meetings etc.

Today has been pretty much the same. Gym, target, home depot and just wrapped up mulching our 9 palm trees....all the neighbors driving by looking at me like I was crazy lugging around these massive bags of mulch! LOL I hope all this movement helps me get this baby here on time.

Here's my to do list, from what I can remember:

Pay the hospital
pack hospital bag
install car seat
pay bills
hire contractor
Clean, cook, organize...blah


Here's how i've been able to stay calm the last few months...shopping. Finally got my Naked 2 from sephora along with some other things! Check it out :)

I want this baby out!!!

So patience is growing thin and exhaustion is at its peak! I wish I could say I can kick up my feet and relax, but there is sooooo much to do!!! How can anyone do this with multiple kids?! I seriously need a nanny, maid and a personal assistant..LOL Any takers?!

Taking care of a puppy, a 3 year old, setting up the office, taking care of the house, bills, cooking, finding time to work out, etc. I can't keep up lately!!!....typing this was overwhelming...LOL
Usually I have no problem with decision making, taking care of things and running errands but I physically can't do it anymore!

Anyways, we've given some thought about upgrading my car back to a big one because I feel a sedan is not cutting it anymore for our growing family. I personally feel like there is not enough space for just me but then again I'm carrying around like 40 extra pounds! We have to decide fast because time is running out! We still have some major decisions to make as far as the practice goes so those need to be made this week and I have no brain power to do that! HELP!?

Also, just a mental note we still need to start paying the hospital bill otherwise we can get outrageous fees if we don't pay the flat rate prior to delivery...ugh!

I am soooo scared of labor though...i can't wait for it to be over and start healing and my brain to start forgetting! Also, looking forward to starting my weight loss journey :D I will be documenting it all on my youtube channel, if you haven't subscribed yet, please take a moment to show me some love! If you want to lose weight with me I think this would be a great motivator for anyone!

Here's my pregnancy update for week 38 and the link to my channel! Enjoy!

Perfect weekend!

What a fabulous long weekend! We've been totally living it up since baby can literally drop any day now! I can honestly say I'm having the best weekend before baby!

To sum up:

Spent half a day shopping with my best friend for clothes and make up! Yes I know its weird I shopped for clothes because I'm not going to stay this size for very much longer but it was still fun! Then went to dinner with some of Pavel's co-workers to one of my favorite Restaurants YOLO. I love meeting new people but lately I haven't been in the mood to do so because I'm so worked up over office, baby and tons of things to get done before baby. I sucked it up and went, why not its good food and who knows how life will be after newborn.

Also, I was surprised to find out an old friend and his wife moved literally like 5 min from us! I made sure we all met up and since I had a babysitter we all went to my other favorite restaurant Mimosa! Can I just tell you how much food I ate this weekend! I think I gained like 5 lbs just from 2 days...LOL

Something I haven't done in a while was be spontaneous, after dinner we all decided to go to movies to see "What to expect when you're expecting" It was so wonderful to wing the plans and go with the flow. It's been a while since we lived like this.  I knew I had to see this film before I popped. So glad I did but it kind of scared me a bit as it was a reminder of what I had to go through to get this baby out. Overall the movie was great!

Sunday morning came, this means church but we decided to sleep in. For those of you who don't have kids sleeping in means, you wake up at 9am..LOL My sister made sure we got that extra 2 hours of sleep and then we hustled to the beach! What an amazing day and perfect weather!

Most people have a day off tomorrow but my hubby has to work. I'm slightly upset over it but I also have tons of errands and decisions to make on his behalf so I guess it's all good.

Here's my latest video! Let me you know what you think of this red lipstick I found! Enjoy! XOXO

37 Weeks pregnant! Tons to do!

Starting of the week busy as ever! With only 3 weeks to go until the arrival of our son, now more than ever does the to do list seem larger than life!

Today we're getting a new fence built in and I'm super excited but at the same time that creates more work for us! After the fence we need to do some landscaping to bring the backyard back to its beautiful state!

Got the practice to think about also as we shop around for a contractor. I'm pretty good at reading people but at the same time I'm not myself lately so hopefully we pick a good one who won't rip us off!

Westill have to decide whether Mila will be startin a new school in the fall, we toured a few and still have to decide.

Mila's skating is wrapping up and I'm still debating whether to sign her up for more or just take a mini break since it will be hard for me to haul both kids to the rink at the same time.

Dog training is wrapping up but I still feel like we need a lot more with the dog so I'm not sure where to go from here with the pup.

I still have to organize my office and get it up to par for baby's arrival. I feel super spaced out and hoping to do it little by little especially since I don't have much time left. Poor kid, I definitely feel like this time around I'm not as concerned with much since I've been through it before.

I have to pack my hospital bag, ehh not looking forward to that. It's not as exciting as packing for a vacation...

Pavel and I need to decide how he's going to take time off to lend me a hand at least for the first week after delivery. Taking a pay cut will definitely hurt but hey it will be worth it.

Oh I almost forgot, we have to start paying the hospital...gosh it seems the bills are never ending!

Here's my latest video on my pregnancy! Enjoy and don't forget to subscribe! Once baby is born I will be documenting my journey as I lose the baby LBS!

In-laws ups downs, & good times!

As you may know, we had our in-laws visiting us from upstate New York! People don't always get along and since I'm pregnant I knew this trip would speed up my labor. Haven't given birth yet but definitely noticed a lot more contractions this week.

The last night with my in-laws was pretty interesting, Pavel and I wanted to do something special for them since it was in fact their vacation. We decided to take them to Tatiana's Restaurant and Cabaret Show. This place is quite pricey but we thought it was definitely worth experiencing. There was some hesitation from them, which makes me wonder why is it that when new experiences are being offered to the older generation they are scared and super negative? Is that with every culture? Why such retaliation when the kids are treating you? Did they forget how to have fun? Are they stuck in a box and can't see beyond it? I mean you're on vacation shouldn't you at least experience something new? With tons of Drama building up to the dinner and show we finally made it and surprisingly everyone had a good time. Although Pavel and I tried to get the in-laws on the dance floor at least one dance we failed. Funny thing is Pavel and I enjoyed a few songs even though there was a baby between us, we felt proud to loosen up and still be young and adventurous. And trust me it being this size and still trying to dance with a huge smile on my face made me even more confident. The night ended very well, everyone was happy with the food, show, music and entertainment!

As I look back at this week there were ups and downs but somehow we got through it with out too many arguments. We all tried to be on our best behavior.  Now they've taken off, I thought I'd have a moment to breathe but this morning Mila had her lessons and then I had to navigate the tree service people to rip out our gorgeous bushes and shrubs to make way for the fence. In a couple of hours I will be taking Simba to his classes. It's a never ending cycle. Which makes me worry, how in the world will I manage it all once Lex is born?! Trying not to think of the unknown and staying focused on what needs to be done at the moment.  :)

Who's there for you when you feel like falling down?

As I near and embrace the arrival of my son, my emotions are all over the place. It feels so wonderful knowing who will be there with me through thick and thin and who has barely checked in! I do have to say that there are certain people who are truly there for you when you're having a wonderful day and there for you when you're falling apart. And with this loving nature they will guide you back to those happy days! I consider myself to be one of those people(when I'm not pregnant), who will always be there for those close to me but lately I can barely be there for myself. That compassion is truly needed and is appreciated. I was heavily relying on certain people to help me cope. Either with watching Mila, to cleaning to having someone to talk. The reality is during those difficult times you see who abandons you and who hangs on.

It's so funny because when I was pregnant with Mila I didn't want anyone's help. I was the tough guy who wanted to do it all! How come I've become more dependant on people this time to help me out? Is it because I have a kid already? Is it because we're building an office? Is it because life is handing us a lot more responsibility? Regardless of which I definitely feel and know in my heart I can't manage everything on my own.

I do have a cranky side and I do have a loving side and lately its been more irritable than loving because of all the lovely symptoms of pregnancy(braxton hicks, memory loss, heart burn, exhaustion, weight gain etc). Sometimes I Just want to run away from myself, run away from how I feel. But that's not the reality! Reality is everything difficult in life brings something better! I want to thank everyone who has given me support and reached out to me and who's helped me along the way. Truly looking forward to holding my little baby and slowly crawling back to feeling normal again! I know for a fact that I can count on myself and that God is always there for me!

My Melt down on Mother's day...:(

Melt down took place this weekend! Gosh can I just tell you how much I dislike all this hormone fluctuation! I WANT TO feel NORMAL again!!!

There are certain people that push my buttons and they were all under the same roof on Sunday!! Usually I get annoyed but this time I got angry and became a crying baby at the same time, on the day we're supposed to celebrate mothers!

I hate showing my emotions and I had no control over my tears when things were not going my way! I had an emotional breakdown! Started crying hysterically when my mom and mom-inlaw would not let me make my famous mashed potatoes. Yes, I consider my potatoes the best and they just didn't like my process. I huffed and puffed and threw threats at them saying "I'm going to make my own batch better than yours!" So silly now that I write it but this little incident got me to the break down where I just started crying and this overwhelming feeling of neglect settled in. THIS IS SOOO NOT ME!!! I don't cry when someone doesn't my way, I may get irritated but CRYING??? C'mon!!!

I was crying so hard and I don't think it was over potatoes but the fact that I just didn't want to be pregnant anymore. I was HUGE, I was HORMONAL, I had a hard time WALKING!!! I just wanted to feel normal and I wanted to feel LOVED!

Mom and Mom- inlaw saw me crying in the backyard and started hugging me which kind of felt weird because I'm not used to getting hugs from them and I hate showing my weakness to them. The worst part was my breakdown started a series of Braxton Hicks which didn't end until the middle of the night! Don't worry I was getting about 2-3 an hour. I definitely felt better today but I am soo tired from lack of sleep!

I am definitely better now. I just feel silly and kind of disappointed in me for crying like a baby!! But I guess crying never hurt anyone right? This pregnancy is making me into a pile of mush!!My 

NAKED face in the Morning

You have no idea how tired I'm getting as I near the end of this pregnancy! I'm somewhat scared of showing you my bare naked face at 7 AM, but here it is! I definitely did not put on as much weight in the face this time around but it does look large to me. Dark circles aren't helping either but hey I'm somewhat proud of the fact that I'm embracing this and not worrying about what people think.

I love make up so much it truly is an art form! With the changes taking place I am happy to find comfort in something that I know for a fact is always the same! MAKEUP!  Here's a view of me right out of bed to getting dolled up! Enjoy and don't forget to subscribe! XOXO

35 Weeks & 5 to go! Getting CLOSER!!

This is getting real! Hospital tour, 5 weeks left! Gosh I can't believe I've been housing a baby for the last 8 months! Emotions are running high with due date approaching and the fear is growing stronger! I am definitely trying to put my faith and trust in God but I'm only human! Pavel has been working a lot lately just to give us the financial support we desperately need but I still miss him and wish he was around more to help me cope with this fear!

In New York he had 30 paid vacation days and we worked at the same hospital so we always saw each other! I feel so much responsibility with Mila, house and office...Sometimes I just want to cry, actually I do! This is not normal for me. It takes a lot to get me to cry like a child but I keep telling myself I'm only getting stronger!

I do have to say my support system from friends is unbelievable! I've never felt so happy or loved by people who care and always inquire about me! It definitely is a perk and sometimes makes up for Pavel's absence!
Here's my Vlog for the week with pics, videos of the belly :)

The beach life/whale!

Since we've been hit with a massive amount of rain in the beginning of this week it was time to head to the beach! I have to admit being cooped up inside was super draining! Don't get me wrong I love rainy weather but not for like 5 days straight! Plus I'm pregnant and tired as it is the rain was not helping! When the sun started shinning again I was out by the pool soaking up some Vitamin D! And GUESS what I started to feel more energized! So no matter what people say being in the sun definitely improves MY mood and energy levels!

Anyways, since Pavel has been working a lot and we've been pretty busy with the office minutia the moment Pavel got home Friday afternoon we were beach bound!! The weather was perfect! Sun was just right! Check out the video below of our little clip of the beach and my bathing suit shot!! ;) Don't forget to subscribe because you get updates on all my videos faster than facebook! XOXO

She didn't want to get off the ICE! WHAT?!

Can you believe this week is almost over?!? I feel like I blink and a week goes by! I guess its a good thing because before you know it I will be holding my little baby in my arms! Although its getting super scary thinking about what is about to happen to me. Everyone I meet who's had 2 kids I always ask how the 2nd one went. Was it fast? Was it easier?? The answers that I'm getting are not consistent with what I hope happens but I think it helps me cope with the reality. I just wish I was my old self, strong, resilient, and fearless! Unfortunately I am the opposite of that!

Today we had skating lessons and Mila is just impressing me with each day! Today she didn't want to get off the ice! I skated with her for a bit and even did some foot work! I know I should be taking it easy but skating soothes my nerves and I couldn't resist. But anyways, back to Mila....holy cow she is so eager to skate! She observes everyone on the ice practicing and wants to do the same. If someone falls she is eager to help them up. She even came up to her coach and asked if she could have private lessons so she could get better. I was impressed! I'm not in a hurry to spend money on private lessons but hey her enthusiasm is encouraging! Mila even told me to register her for more lessons in June! LOVE Her attitude!

Here's another tutorial on my sister! Better techniques that are super easy!

34 Weeks & 6 to go!

Yesterday I officially registered at the hospital for my delivery! All of the sudden it felt even more real! I was given a break down of the costs I will have for the delivery and if all goes smoothly it shouldn't be that expensive. But hey who  am I kidding 3-4k for delivery is a huge expense!!! Anyways, here's my update on this week and update on my back. Belly shot included ;)